So I'm sort of dumbfounded right now...imagine--me, dumbfounded. Doesn't happen very often. I am suddenly taken back to my junior high/ highschool days and sweet Jesus, I'm glad those times and feelings don't have to be revisited often. It seems that, unbeknownst to me, SMURFETTE has read my previous blogs. "Bum bum bum," go the drums. You know what--I don't care and that's a weird feeling. My first reaction to learning that she had read them was to gasp, clasp my hand over my mouth, and say "ohmyGod, what did I say in those," but after re-reading them, I'm completely OK. The blogs were very emotional and expressed my exact feelings in regards to the situation, and I will not be sorry for freely expressing myself. My second reaction was to think, "Great, I'm sure all kinds of people know what I said now." But again, I'm OK with that because I stand behind what I wrote and what difference does it make to me whether someone thinks I'm a bitch, or whatever. I am really coming to terms with not caring what other people think about me in all aspects of life. Very liberating.

You know I am so sick and tired of petty things in life and I don't know how I let myself get wrapped back up in them. I am so sick of drama. God, it's draining and pointless. (and I'm not just referring to the SMURFETTE situation) There are so many more important things in life. It's always the small things that we have ourselves immersed in and frustrated with--if we could only continually remind ourselves of the 'big picture.'

The drama has just compouned recently...regardless of how stressful The Gambia ends up being, it will be a welcomed relief in many areas.