Got to talk to JOHAN tonight on the phone for a good long while; definitely the high point of my sucky day!

Just when you think the little bastards couldn't be more bastardly....

All day and no calls from DD; no huge surprise there but I'm pissed nonetheless. Here's the kicker--tonight I get a call on my cell from a number I don't recognize. I answer it naturally and the guy on the other end asks me for HALE's number. I give it to him and ask repeatedly who he is. This game goes on for a few and ends with him saying that he will introduce himself to me the next time he sees me. I come home to find HALE on the phone with this guy and guess what...he used to go here and he's at a bar in Pokey with DD and got my number from him. Do you have this? The bastard is at a bar, giving out my number, and do you think he talked to me at all? The answer would be NO. Alright so obviously I care to some degree, but let's just put all the cards out here. He calls twice late at night wanting to see if I was ok after the funeral, right? Say I wasn't ok, and here he is offering a listening ear and again right when I possibly could need him, he makes himself unavailable. That's cruel and heartless. It's a damn good thing that I do not NEED him right now because I would be seriously more depressed about the whole situation. He can go to Hell....I have axed him.

The drama with DD continues...two nights ago he called during the wee hours. Needless to say that I was not going to jump out of my bed to answer any phones calls at that hour especially since it involved a climb down and back up to my covers. Not only did he call on the cell, he also called my room phone too. Unfortunately the little bastard left a message on the cell which meant that it would beep consistantly every minute until I checked my v-mailbox. Pissed off, I went through the process of getting up and jumping from SPAM's bed to the floor (she was still in Florida for break). My pissiness flew out the window the minute I heard the message though. Lasting nearly 4 minutes, it consisted of things like "I just wanted to see if you are still doing alright (since the funeral)...to see if you are happy...wanted to see if you would like to go out tomorrow and talk...there are some things that I would like to talk to you about..."and so on and so forth. My natural stupid girl reaction was to freak out with excitement. It honestly took me nearly 2 hours to get to sleep after that. Of course I wanted to go out and talk; we've had no closure from how our 'relationship' ended this summer. Good God, I really liked this guy and I'm not going to lie--I still do have some feelings for him. But no more!!! First of all he sat with me at lunch and yeah we talked, nothing serious and there was no mention of the message more than just a joke or two--no mention of wanting to go out that night. Later that evening, not knowing really if I should call him back or not, not knowing if he seriously wanted to talk...I called. He was so short and nonchalant with me that I was floored. It's not like I was the one making the request to talk or anything...he said that he had class until around 8 and I just ended by saying that I would call later, which I did. No answer. Around 1am I called again and just left a message saying basically "be straight with me...if you wanna talk fine, if not, fine." Do you think I heard from him? No. Do you think I will hear from him today? No. Do you know why that is? Because I have been told and have learned that guys just like knowing that they have control. They will do little things like this, pretending to care, when really their intention is just to keep one last hook in you. They're not stupid, and they know that we are. Jerks. Bastards take advantage of our weaknesses.
So DD is on the verge of the ax. Let's hope it doesn't come to that, but I'm not afraid to do it.