Maybe I shouldn't be upset, maybe I have every right to be....
Talked to SMURFETTE today and finally realized that I have once again been written out of the wedding of a best friend. Alittle bit of history--my best girlfriend from kindergarten through highschool was married last Christmas...should have been the maid of honor...ended up the guest book attendent. That's the job that you give to the teenage girl who worships the ground you walk on but who you just didn't want to throw into your wedding party. My home-room teacher from senior year couldn't even believe I got the shaft and he's generally oblivious to everything.
Now SMURFETTE, my best friend through 3 years of college and since....getting married and once again...should have been the maid of honor, but left with nothing. Sorry, it might be selfish of me but it just lets me know how I rank I guess. Fine, there was a possibility that I would be out of the country for her wedding...but she never even mentioned the possibility of me being a part of her ceremony. Originally I figured that I would be involved and was beginning to formulate a plan to make it back for her big day, but honestly, there's no point to it now. Why would I rearrange to have Christmas with my family in November because I wouldn't be able to come home twice in such a short amount of time....I'm not any part of the freaking wedding!!!! I'm the one that should be with her during her last moments, making sure everything is perfect, calming her nerves.....God, I'm going to end up having no wedding party when I get married because all of my friends have shafted me in theirs. I'm being such a petty girl but I'm a wee bit pissy!